An understanding of feelings part 1

Everyone has feelings, they are the root of life itself around us. no matter what anyone says nothing can be done without feelings. they are in our every action and reaction. they flow through us like the blood in our veins yet we consider them a seperate entity.
but then we also say that life is colourful. what is it that we are saying by this? simply that life is giving colour to relate to everything around us. Therefore i would not be wrong in saying that even feelings have colours. But, what we fail to realise is that, We are like a canvas for our feelings to paint. There is a certain richness & texture to these 'colours'. I use it this was because the colour is not real but just a part of what we feel. Let me paint you a picture of the most common feeling. Anger. typically depicted by red. We all invariably forget, that, it is not static or only of one kind. You could have green anger, which, as shakespear says is about jealousy & the most commonly used colour. then there's purple the shade of frustration. typically idolised by numerous cartoons too. then there is black for hatred. This is by far the best use of the colour, as, there is no depth for hatred & its cohorts. They just delve deep into a person & stay there forever. now to come back to red. This would be pure anger. The kinds that does not listen to reason, thought or even our own minds conniving forces. It is limitless endless & pure. It has no start, no end. only existence.

Mentality and me.

As amusing as it sounds thats mental in plural in conjunction with behaviour. its like living many lives all at once out of one shell its the fun of being so many people and so many things at once that its hard to imagine. sometimes i wonder if my head would just explode with the number of people i believe i act like. lets see if 'we' can explain what its like. its like thinking ok now i need to look at this store i work in and wondering what my scaredy cat dog is upto at home. and thinking about those fabulous focal audio 45lakh utopia series speakers with 500 watts full range power and that fantastic honda i saw the other day with the turbo. and its about wondering how is it that the guy who makes that engine actually remembers where each nut and bolt goes. or thinking about the intricacy of the print i'm working with or this old lady who just walked in off the road. sometimes i just wonder how is it that a mind a one faceted thing comes up with so many crazy ass things. or the fact that it can supply my mouth with stuff to say 24x7 while other ppl close their ears. then i wonder is all of this me. or just bits and pieces and things my mind comes up with joined together with anothers life and reality. then it strikes me that we all live borrowed lives and that nothing is static its all fluid motion so mentalness and being multi-faceted go hand in hand. its like saying a fly has only one socket on each side but many facets in each eye. so too we are all like that. i guess thats what life is all about many things in one form. now that a new reality.